Ugly Love (Hoover)/Chapter 23
from the Collection āUgly Loveā
Chapter Summary
Tate missed Miles after three weeks without seeing him. She had worked through Christmas, passed New Yearās, and started another semester. At home, she comforted herself with chocolate while waiting for her study partners.
Chad arrived alone because Tarryn had been called to work. Miles opened his door across the hall and saw them together. When Chad offered privacy by announcing he would wait in Tateās bedroom, Miles withdrew. Tate felt guilty despite knowing she owed him no explanation.
Tate and Chad spent three hours studying and sharing notes. After Chad left, Miles entered and questioned her about him. Tate angrily rejected his right to interfere in her life, but reassured him that she had neither slept with nor kissed Chad.
Miles admitted he did not know what to do about wanting her and asked her to make him leave. Tate could not send him away. Although he warned that he could offer nothing more, they resumed their sexual relationship.
During their intimacy, Tate found herself reading emotional meaning into his sustained eye contact. She knew she wanted more than their arrangement allowed. Afterward, Miles worried about Corbinās return and prepared to leave, inviting her over later.
They discovered that Corbin, Tateās brother, was already home and had heard them. He demanded to know whether Miles loved Tate or planned to. Miles answered negatively, hurting Tate despite confirming what she already knew.
Corbin ordered Miles out after Miles defended Tateās adulthood. Furious at her brotherās interference and wounded by Milesās answers, Tate followed Miles across the hall. They acknowledged that his friendship with Corbin would probably change.
Miles apologized for his answers and his jealous questioning. He said he never wanted to love anyone again, although he wanted Tate and enjoyed being with her. Tate took encouragement from his distinction between rejecting love generally and rejecting her personally.
They agreed to keep their arrangement simple and end it if it became too difficult. Tate asked him not to give her false hope of a future. She denied that he already had, concealing her feelings. Miles promised not to offer hope, and she outwardly welcomed the promise.
Later, Tate told Cap that Corbin had discovered the relationship. Dillon entered the lobby and rudely dismissed Capās help with the elevator. Tate answered Dillonās obvious question sarcastically, and Cap supported her. After Dillon left, they shared a high-five.
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Iāll never love anyone again. Itās not worth it to me. But Iām being unfair to you. I know Iām messing with your head, and I know Iāve hurt you, and Iām sorry for that.
Iām lying to him, and Iām lying to myself, and Iām not doing either of us any good, but I canāt stop the words that come out of my mouth.
Every single one of his admissions should be a red flag, since they were all also coupled with the hard truth that he doesnāt plan on loving me or having a relationship with me, but the red flag doesnāt rise.