Ugly Love (Hoover)/Chapter 32
from the Collection âUgly Loveâ
Chapter Summary
Six years earlier, Miles celebrated the birth of his two-day-old son, Clayton. Seeing Lisa and his father love the baby, he believed Clayton had brought their families together and already considered him a hero.
Ian visited the hospital, and Rachel persuaded him to hold Clayton. He revealed that, after first meeting Rachel, Miles had sent him her picture and predicted she would have his children. Rachel was delighted.
After the doctor discharged them, Ian helped Miles load the car and hugged him goodbye. Miles felt encouraged by his friend's approval. He drove away with Rachel sitting beside Clayton in the backseat.
The parents admired their baby and joked about his appearance. Miles urged Rachel to rest, but she could not stop watching Clayton. Then Miles noticed unusually bright oncoming traffic, and a collision sent their car off a bridge into a lake.
As water filled the car, Rachel struggled to free Clayton's stuck car seat. Miles broke his window and tried to help, but Rachel's seat belt was also trapped. Despite her demands that he save Clayton first, Miles freed her belt and pulled her toward his window.
A rescuer helped get Rachel out. Miles kept searching for Clayton until he could no longer breathe. He regained consciousness in a boat, injured and beside Rachel. When he tried to return for the baby, others restrained him and said it was too late.
Rachel screamed that Miles should have saved Clayton instead of her. He held her while she hit and kicked him, inwardly insisting he had tried to save both. They wept together, and Miles blamed himself for destroying their family and believed Rachel could no longer love him.
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Itâs not your *actual* life that flashes before your eyes.
What flashes before your eyes are the people who *are* your life.
Rachel and Clayton.
All I see is the two of themâ*my whole life*âflash before my
eyes.
I try to hold her, but she wonât let me. Sheâs screaming.
Sobbing. CRYING. WAILING.
She hits me.
She kicks me.
She says I should have saved him instead.
- But I tried to save you both, Rachel.*
It hurts so much. I never knew a heart could hold the weight of the entire world.
I donât make Rachelâs life better anymore.
I ruined you, Rachel.
- My family.*