Ugly Love (Hoover)/Chapter 31
from the Collection âUgly Loveâ
Chapter Summary
Tate waited eagerly for Miles to return after ten days away while Corbin prepared dinner. She had found an apartment closer to work and school but had not yet told Miles she would be moving out.
She and Miles rarely contacted each other unless they were both home, preserving the boundaries of their arrangement. Although her new place was only a few blocks away, she feared he might end things once seeing her became less convenient.
Miles arrived and struggled to conceal his excitement at seeing Tate. Corbin remained curt and focused on cooking, still uncomfortable with their involvement. Miles asked about her midterms and silently told her she looked pretty.
Unable to keep his distance, Miles kissed Tate in front of Corbin and led her out. At his apartment, she noticed his luggage was still in the hallway. He admitted he had come straight to see her before going home.
Tate teasingly said he had missed her, but Miles immediately tensed and changed the subject. His sudden withdrawal made her recognize that she could no longer handle their arrangement, despite hoping he would eventually open up.
When she directly asked whether he had missed her, Miles refused to answer. He said they did not say such things and had never been friends. He also invoked her rule against giving her false hope to explain his refusal.
Overwhelmed by accumulated hurt, Tate asked what another woman had done to him. Miles warned her not to pursue the question and told her to leave. She swore at him and headed for the door, but he followed and slammed it shut before she could go.
Miles insisted their relationship had always been strictly sexual and that his two rules were clear. Tate challenged him, saying their intimacy had become lovemaking. She cited his looks, his longing, and his rush to see her as evidence that his actions contradicted his words.
After Tate finished, Miles stepped away and struggled to control his breathing. He turned from her, gripped his neck, and finally asked what he was doing to her. He sank down against a wall, covered his face, and began crying silently.
Recognizing the same anguished crying she had witnessed when they first met, Tate knelt beside him and put an arm around his shoulders. She stopped asking about his past because she was now frightened to learn the source of his pain.
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âBut we were never friends. And I donât want to break your one and only rule by giving you false hope, so Iâm not saying it.â
I canât explain what happens to me, because I donât know.
You canât even wait ten seconds to walk in your own front door before coming to see me. So donât you dare try to tell me youâve been clear from day one, because you are the murkiest goddamn man Iâve ever met.
This grown man, this wall of intimidation, this solid veil of armor, heâs completely crumbling right in front of my eyes.
âMiles?â I whisper. My voice is weak compared with his massive silence.